Sunday, October 10, 2010

Sunday, October 03, 2010

complicated men, complicate lives

well, i do not really know what ah pui is trying to say but my own interpretation is this:

we have ourselves to blame if that happens.
there had been a few instances which i thought i made it complicated for myself:



scenario 1
recently, i found out that of one the security guards drove to work and had the audacity to park at the residents' lot. i discovered this when i saw him drove out at about 2+ on a saturday afternoon while he was on duty. in the first place, who is he to park at the residents' lot. secondly, who allowed his vehicle into the property? why did he drive out while he was on duty? 



many questions were unanswered and i went to the management office to report this matter to the estate manager. she didn't believe a word i say until she called the guard house and the security guard admitted. he was told not to drive anymore but just this morning, i saw the same car again. (likelihood to react on monday: 90%)


scenario 2
it was children's day and i decided to get a small gift for the ten P6 students whom i have been giving them remedial on saturdays (note: their own form teacher did not want to come back on a saturday to help them). it was meant to be a surprise for them but instead, i surprised myself. not only did they not say thank you, two girls came up to me and asked if they could swap the colour of the pen with me. i was dumb folded and did not react to it as it was meant to be a happy occasion for them. (likelihood to react that instant: 80%)


given my personality, i would not have let the two matter go just like that but over the years, i have learnt something called 'letting go'. for people like me, it takes a lot of strength and attainment to let go of certain things which may seem trivial to others. 


i read about summiko tan's article in the today's papers about her marriage life. i had such a good laugh because it was an exact reflection of my own marriage. the marriage had brought out the monster in her and likewise in me. often, i am so blinded by getting things right but really, letting go lightens the load and allows me to enjoy the simple pleasures which had been there all along. 


complicated men, complicated lives?
i say forget about it and let me enjoy my ruffles and muscato.
(of course, before that i have to vacuum and mop the floor first)

c'est la vie!