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You Are Funshine Bear!


Which Care Bear Are You Most Like?
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You scored as Upper middle Class. Your determination have soared you this high, yet not high enough to enjoy the luxuries of the upper class. Your most valued posession is your country club membership which is kept framed in the office. Upper middle Class 58% alternative 46% Luxurious Upper Class 42% Middle Class 38% Lower Class 25% What Social Status are you? created with QuizFarm.com

You are 60% Gemini

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

You Are 1: The Reformer

You're a responsible person - with a clear sense of right and wrong. High standards are important to you, and you do everything to meet them. You are your own worst critic, feeling ashamed if you're not perfect. You have uncompromising integrity, and people expect you to be fair. At Your Best: You are hopeful, honest, and inspiring. You bring out the best in humanity. At Your Worst: You are intolerant, judgmental, and picky. Your Fixation: Resentment Your Primary Fear: Being corrupt. Your Primary Desire: To be good. Other Number 1's: Al Gore, Martha Stewart, Gandhi, Celiene Dion, and Spock from Star Trek.

What Number Are You?

You Are From the Sun

Of all your friends, you're the shining star. You're dramatic - loving attention and the spotlight. You're a totally entertainer and the life of the party. Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty. Overall, you're a great leader and great friend. The very best!

What Planet Are You From?

I am The World The World represents the moments when we feel fulfilled and blessed and all that goes into them. It is a very positive sign that you are in a position to realize your heart's desire. What that is for you depends on the situation, but it will always feel great. Remember, though, that Card 21 is a symbol of active contribution and service. To hold the World in our hands, we must give of ourselves to it. That is the source of true happiness. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

What tarot card are you? Enter your birthdate. Month: Day: Year:

You are Xuan Wu!

Mythological background: Because the turtle has a
thick, solid shell that serves as protection -
this animal is associated with stability. You
enjoy intellectual pursuits.
Also, in Feng Shui (the Chinese myths behind
choosing a house), the black turtle's solidity
is used to protect from cold northern winds.


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So In Love...

So In Love by Lara Fabian and Mario Frangoulis
OST De-lovely track #15



strange dear, but true dear,
when im close to you dear.
the stars fill the sky,
so im love with you am i.

even without you
my arms fold about you.
you know, darling, why,
so in love with you am i.

in love with the night mysterious
the night when you were first there,
in love with my joy delirious
when i knew that you could care

so taunt me and hurt me,
decieve me, desert me,
im yours till i die,

so in love,
so in love,
so in love with you, my love, am i

My Primary School

sometimes when you least expect something to happen, it happens!

just i tot it was lousy to be 'volunteered' by my director to offer some manpower help for a telematch for some primary school students, the venue was actually my primary school!

i remember clearly tat the last time i went back was 1991 on teachers' day (i graduated in 1990) to express my gratitude to the teachers who had taught me valuable lessons, on top of those inside the classroom.

but when i looked at the board this morning, none of the teachers look familar - not tat i have a lousy memory, but pple move on i guess.

but it was an experience for me, to be a facilitator for a telematch of 50 students. looking them enjoying the games and ra ra-ing for the cheer competition, its very hard (knock knock) not to just let go of myself and be a big kid for a day.

yea and i had so much fun playing games with them. met a friend who happen to be one of the organizers of this event. i noticed they way he handled the children was rather hostile, something tat i havent been doing for quite sometime already. but later i saw for myself how the children can splash water out of bottles at each other.

*faints*

my friend told me "you were once like them too!" i laughed.

O Bendemeer Primary School,
Our future is moulded with this tool.
We learn to follow and to lead,
Our future is with vigour indeed!

From each his best, its such an easy test
To develop positive attitude,
To serve our nation with gratitude.

Here hand in had together we stand,
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this is my primary school song. i wonder if they have changed it. i cant remember the last part cos i never like it when i was singing them. strangely dunno why. but come to think of it. can you remember your primary school song, without making any reference? come to think about it, its been 14 years i last sang my primary school song. ha ha ha... when was the last time you sang yours?

2004 全球華人流行歌曲排行榜 最佳年度作詞獎 戴佩妮 <<防...空洞>>

<<防...空洞>> 戴佩妮 So Penny...好佩妮(新歌+精選)track #1



還記得那一次你將你的手
小心的放進我的口袋
輕聲的說不要顫抖

還記得那一次你擦乾我的淚
還堅持將我低下的頭
緊緊的貼進你的胸口

我有多久沒感動過 若不是你那麼強烈的保護我
若不是你的那一句 你有的不多
卻願意把最好的都留給我

你要我住進你心裡的防空洞 不讓無謂的思緒暗湧
再多分擾也都沒有用 你決定了我所有的喜怒哀愁

你把我帶到一個停泊的港口 讓回憶可以避避風
仰望著夜空 聽潮起潮落 為你我不在嚮往著漂流

I've never been to me

I've never been to me by Charlene, OST Priscilla Queen of The Dessert



Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady, I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

亲爱的你怎么不在我身边

<<亲爱的你怎么不在我身边>> 江美琪 又寂寞又美丽 track #3



这里的空气　很新鲜　这里的小吃　很特别
这里的 Latte　不像水　这里的夜景　很有感觉

在一万英尺　的天边　在有港口 View　的房间
在讨价还价　的商店　在凌晨喧闹　的三四点

可是亲爱的　你怎么不在我身边
我们有多少时间　能浪费

电话再甜美　传真再安慰
也不足以应付不能拥抱你　的遥远

我的亲爱的　你怎么不在我身边
一个人过一天　像过一年

海的那一边　乌云一整片
我很想为了你快乐一点

可是亲爱的　你怎么　不在身边

荳漿油條

was chatting with june last night about cheap cds at chinatown... and she was telling me about jj's cd which only costs her $6... i was telling her how cheapo i was to borrow the same cd from a friend and copy the files into mp3 and stored them inside my laptop... ha ha ha... here's one song that i would like to recommend from this album... maybe as a sequel to my previous entry...

<<荳漿油條>> 林俊傑 第II天堂 track #5

喝純白的荳漿 是純白的浪漫
望著你可愛臉蛋 和你純真的模樣

我傻傻對你笑 是你懮愁解藥
你說我就象油條 很簡單卻很美好

我知道 你和我 就象是荳漿油條
要一起吃下去 味道才會是美好
你需要我的傻笑 我需要你的擁抱
愛情就是要這樣它才不會淡掉

我知道 有時候 也需要吵吵鬧鬧
但始終也知道 只有你對我最好
荳漿離不開油條 讓我愛你愛到老
愛情就是要這樣它才幸福美好

我知道 都知道 你知道 你都知道
好不好 別偷笑 笑 讓我知就好

我喝完熱荳漿 卻唸著還想要
你吃完金黃油條 愛情又要再發酵

The Stepford Wives (its not another bimbotic movie ok?)

everyone is always looking for the perfect one... are you?

on several occassions when i was still a bus-person, i often hear this kind of conversation: "...my boyfriend must be the most handsome looking guy with 6 pacs and biceps, blah blah blah..." "... Oh my boyfriend must have a car, live in landed-property, preferably 6th avenue and blah blah blah..."

there is nothing perfect in life...not such thing as a perfect marriage, only great marriages, not such thing as the perfect partner, only wonderful partner... (well if you wish to say that the person is perfect in your eyes, by all means)

chee chee once told me this: people need to kiss many frogs in their lives in order that they find their prince / princess...

i dun buy this totally: for if we continue to kiss the frogs in our lives, there will soon be no more frogs to kiss...

and to june, when will i know i love a person? i can safely say this: i know i love a person when im able to accept her / him for who s/he is; its exactly the same person that i first know. and to change, believe tat s/he will change or i can change her / him to be that perfect partner that i have always been looking for is not realistic at all... if you cant accept who the person is, sad to say, you dun love the person (enough)

moral of the story? dun take the bus, drive, if you dun wish to be amuzed by superficial conversations... alternatively, go watch the movie and see for yourself wat love is all about (i dun earn commission for promoting the movie)

<<信仰爱情>> 范逸臣 信仰爱情 track #3

这场雨不知从何开始 真实 是你近我的清醒
像是兴奋剂 麻醉了自已 见你我措手不及

我试着问过我自已 无解深深着迷 迷失自已
越想接近你 越怕没有你 有没有好运降临

给我 信仰爱情的勇气 我的世界只有你
甜蜜确定 不放弃就让我可以深情 闭上眼精
深深呼吸 遇见你我是如此幸运

给我一个机会拥抱你 一生一秒也不要
忽远忽近 看不清给我允许守候你
从今天起 信仰爱情 有意义 因为你

我相信 因为有你

吻

<<吻>> 萧亚轩 爱的主打歌·吻 track #3

如果时间能把我们的思念稀释了
从此以后互不相干各自爱着别的人

只要不遇见忽然下雨的清晨
在起床的时候 会莫名的失神

说好决定要努力忘了啊
为何还有泪停在脸颊
你身边是否还是那个她
取代我在你醒来吻你吗
取代我在你醒来吻你吗

如果当时我们都能够勇敢的承认
困为太在乎对方所以才倔强的等待着

后来每个失眠的午夜时分
还不愿意后悔 却忍不住会问

说好决定要努力忘了啊
为何还有泪停在脸颊
你身边是否还是那个她
取代我在你醒来吻你吗
取代我在你醒来吻你吗

那段流着眼泪寻找解答的日子 已过去了
只是没想到爱情要 我们付出漫长想念代价

说好决定要努力忘了啊
为何还有泪停在脸颊
你身边是否还是那个她
取代我在你醒来吻你吗
取代我在你醒来吻你吗

NIKE Real Run 2004

Yeah! it was my first attempt to challenge the event yesterday...

it was fun running the event but was really beyond my expectations.... the thing is that: i have been training for the past few weeks for the run but it turn out tat we were supposed to run on the coastal line of sentosa for 3.5km! gosh~ it was the toughest part of the race; its not just a race against the body but a race against the mind as well.

well for a start the sand is soft and damp. so the moment when i step on them, my feet will natually 'sink' into the sand and there must be extra effort to lift them in order to continue running. and the most challenging part is tat it was the whole stretch of coastal line from palawan beach right up to siloso beach... so low morale when i realised tat "huh? i have to run all the way to siliso beach? but greatful thank-you and appreciation to the route-marshalls who were there and gave us the support - they were clapping and cheering for all the competitors and tat really gave me the motivation to go on...

well i completed the race but dun ask me for the timing cos i we started in batches and the end timing was only meant for the first batch of runners... i sure hope to complete the race within an hour... despite the coastal line challenge... oh ya... guess who i saw? ben and huiyi... so sweet to run and complete the race together...

but the not-so-pleasant thing is tat i got a L size t-shrit at the end of the race cos the organizers 'ran out of sizes'... this is very riduculous cos i had my size indicated on the registration form and they told me tat they ran out of size? then the even more ridiculous thing is tat they actually bother to ask participants at the collection booth "what size you wan?" when they actually have only size L left... i was like "duh, wats the point of asking in the first place?" and the worst thing is tat the L sized t-shirt actually is so long tat it reaches my running shorts such that i look as if im going around without my shorts!

but life goes on with or without my M-sized t-shirt... hope more pple i know will be willing to take up the challenge next year... time to get your butt off the chair you lazy bums!

Just got the most disturbing call

hey guys, its me.. just got a call for help which makes me quite disturbed by it:

a 16-year old boy is being locked out by his step-mother cos he brought a  girl home to use the computer. the poor boy had no choice but to seek help from his mother. the mother is furious to know that the decision to lock out her son was actually suppoted by her former husband.

as a result, the boy had no uniform and books to go to school the next day. the uncle (the mother's brother)  of the boy called my centre for help, saying that the boy's father refused to open the door even for the boy to collect his belongings.

ARGH!!! wat kind of fathter is he? fought so hard for custody of the child and in the end? lock his son out? Ridiculous right? i would have made a polic reoprt against that guy supposed i were they boy. however, this is just one side of the story... havent been able to contact the father at the moment so i shall not make any more judgemental remarks...

this serves purely for me to rattle... rattle rattle rattle...

On the first day of my career...

On the first morning of my career, my boss said this to me:

we have to make ourselves available for our clients. if they are free after work, we'll conduct our sessions in the evenings. and if they are only free during the weekends, we'll conduct or programmes over the weekend.

on the first afternoon of my career, i went for seminar at MCDS on child custody investigation:

i found out that:
1) the custody decision lies entirely on a report prepared by us.
2) most parents fight for the child's custody in order to get hold of the matrimonial assets (i.e. the HDB flat)
3) divorce is the end of a marriage, it is NOT the end to parenting
4) the child is often the victim of the divorce, irregardless of the decision.

on the first night of my career, here i am blogging about the first day of my career... more interesting experiences to come...

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

do you believe that memories of someone you love can be erased?

if you ask me the same question, my answer is NO!

to me, memories are constructed for a reason:

to laugh cos we were so silly,
to learn cos we didnt know how to cherish each other,
to cry cos we really felt for each other,
to grow cos we ceased to be together and of course,
to touch my heart and smile cos it happened


<<忘记你我做不到>> 张学友 忘记你我做不到 track #1

有爱就有恨 或多或少
有幸福就有烦恼 除非你都不要
跟你的温柔比较 一切变得不重要
没有你…… 分分秒秒
都是煎熬……

有爱就有恨 或多或少
想一次白头到老 说再见太潦草
看你头也不回的走掉 心里像火烧
管它艳阳高照……

忘记你我做不到 不去天涯海角
在我身边就好 要是承诺不可靠
是什么让我们拥抱……

忘记你我做不到 不去天涯海角
在我身边就好
如果爱是痛苦的泥沼
让我们一起逃……

Mathematics... Anyone game?

The True IQ Test

Congratulations, meng!
Your IQ score is 129

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the True IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind.

Laws of Attractions... are you being attracted yet?

watched laws of attraction this evening with a long lost friend...

"love always have the last word"

<<爱，很简单>> 陶喆 陶喆同名专辑 track #4


忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你 真的很简单

爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔 为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我 喔～

I LOVE YOU 无法不爱著你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你

不可能更快乐
只要能在一起 做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心 让爱变的简单

I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里 一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU（yes I do）
永远都不放弃 这爱的权利

如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No 请贴著我的心倾听
听我说著爱你（yes I do）我爱你

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Heart of Crystal


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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obsessive compulsive


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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What Color is Your Brain?
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At work or in school: I like set routines and organized ways of doing thingsl rules and directions are a great help to me. I prefer to stay on one topic at a time. I need to know what is expected of me, and I always want to know if I am on the right track. I like subjects that are useful and traditional, such as business, accounting, history and government.
With friends: I prefer people who are careful with their money and who make plans ahead of time. I like my friends to be loyal, dependable and on time. I am serious about love and show it in many practical ways.
With family: I like stability and security and enjoy traditions and frequent celebrations. I like to spend holidays with family members, and I plan ahead for such gatherings.


hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Jung Typology Test
Your Type is: INFJ
Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging
Strength of the preferences: 33(I) 11(N) 11(F) 44(J)

Qualitative analysis of your type formula

You are:
moderately expressed introvert
slightly expressed intuitive personality
slightly expressed feeling personality
moderately expressed judging personality

ha ha ha... i got all the 3 tests from june's blog and indentical restuls as well! well maybe cos we are gemini (hint: our birthdays are coming hor)

as for Jung's Test, i did it sometime ago and my results were ISTJ... cant remember wat S and T means but from the results, the dominant I and J still remains... and thats wat personality traits are all about - stability

你嘗試過一個人程搭著最後一班離開國大的巴士嗎?

你嘗試過一個人程搭著最後一班離開國大的巴士嗎?

那條平日人來人往﹐熙熙攘攘﹐你我都熟悉的的道路﹐突然之間在夜空的陪伴下﹐顯得特別寧靜...

當你早已習慣了群體的生活﹐哪怕只是二人世界﹐獨處時的滋味格外孤單...

這時﹐耳機裡傳來熟悉的過門...


<<眼神>> 孫燕姿 Leave track #8

被现实推挤 梦想会变形
执着让人 觉得好吃力

我只是看着你 了解的神情
微笑扬起 又能继~~~续

有时候爱是一种眼神 赶走所有苦闷
是你让我记得自己不是一个人

有你在什么都有可能 因为彼此信任
真的爱情不需要保证(会恒温)

你从不劝我 别逆风飞行
牵手陪我 向梦前~~~进


這是我非常喜歡的一首歌。它代表了我對愛情的嚮往與信念﹐這也不禁讓我想起了許多在國大的回憶...

一轉眼就要畢業了。昨晚的旅程不就正好替我這段難忘的大學生涯畫上了圓滿的句號嗎?

一段旅程的結束是否就代表著另一段旅程即將要開始了呢? 或許是吧...


<<翅膀>> 林俊杰 乐行者 track #3

同样的机场　不同世界
同样的咖啡　不同味觉

同样的你和我　都少了一些
看飞机划过天空　不见了

用你给我的翅膀飞　我懂这不是伤悲
再高都不会累　我们都说好了

用你给我的翅膀飞　我感觉己够安慰
乌云也不再多　我们也不为谁掉眼泪

空气中藏着　你的香味
回忆里躲着　你的眼泪

最后拥抱的温暖还有一些
我拖着行李往前一直走

Bi Borh Bi Borh...

I am the Siren A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy. Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown.

What Type of Seducer are You?
created by polite_society

<<蔷薇>> 萧亚轩 红蔷薇 track#7

不知谁　昨夜没有睡　浇醒了那一朵红蔷薇
短短的就在这一夜之间　　绚烂盛开　是如此灿烂　如此绝对

难道它也在想念著谁　莫非它也能体会我的眼泪
想起你　我会心碎　　鲜红的好像我心中那道旧伤口流的血

oh~~　在心中百转千回　多想再见你一面
让我知道你心中也感觉　我们的爱没白费　直到生命最后一夜
你和我　还深深怀念

不知谁　昨夜没有睡　浇醒了那一朵红蔷薇
短短的就在这一夜之间　　绚烂盛开　是如此灿烂　如此绝对

道它也在想念著谁　莫非它也能体会我的眼泪
想起你　我会心碎　　鲜红的好像我心中那道旧伤口流的血

oh~~　在心中百转千回　多想再见你一面
让我知道你心中也感觉　我们的爱没白费　直到生命最后一夜
记得你我　深爱过

oh~~　在心中百转千回　多想再见你一面
让我知道你心中也感觉　我们的爱没白费　直到生命最后一夜
你和我　还深深怀念

心中百转千回　oh~~baby　我多想　多想再吻你一遍再爱一遍
我们的爱　 oh~~没白费　　也许永远很深～深～怀念 oh~~

You know how I want to get
It's the last ...Oh no
Oh baby! I want to back to my life Oh~~
You know how I need you
My memories forget to hard

Beautiful Boxer

i finally realised why i got affected by a friend's comment to the thai movie beautiful boxer

"how come its not a comedy?"

guess he is just too juvenile to understand that not every true life story has to be a comedy...

seriously if you think that by going to changi point carpark is fun, i sincerely urge you to look beyond wat you see...


<<一個人的圓舞曲>> 陳潔儀 囉啦 track #2

午后一场雨淋湿了空气 街道变得安静
心情像街边发呆的桌椅 空空荡荡在休息

人们都躲进喧哗的屋里 我独亨这份冷清
让世界停一停 多情的人 先别在我心里来去

孤单是奢侈的东西 滂沱的情绪谁也不能整理
我自己 陪我自己 慢慢回忆这一点一滴

这场大雨像是一个人的圆舞曲 我和我的思绪旋转不停
跳完这一曲 悲伤慢慢放晴 天空也开始变得清晰

思念是最后的距离 无声的回忆像日场默剧
我自己 演我自己 不让别人操控我的悲喜

这场大雨像是一个人的圆舞曲 一个人的快乐比较容易
跳完这一曲 你还在我心里 终于我可以自由呼吸

I've learned that i should always leave my loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time i'm seeing them.

i got the inspiration to write about my mother from chris's blog...

extract of my comments from chris's blog:
"...sometimes if we take a step more in trying to understand wat our parents have gone thru, we can understand their world-views and the type of up-bringing that makes them who they are today...

i remember a friend once told me: "all mothers graduated from the same unversity; they all care for their children in their own unique way" up till now, i still believe in that statement..."

i often consider my mother a very fusion-kind of person... she holds very traditional values but clothed in modern fashion... not wat those model would wear in a fashion show but at least she would be 'advised' against ah-soh dressing (from me of course!) hmm.... i'll shall reveal a secret here: my mum used to dress in typical ah-lian dressing when my dad was courting her... and her waist used to be 23"!!! but now i always tease her that it should 32" instead...

i've learnt a lot of things from my mother... she dun have to talk a lot of wisdom but i leant from her actions, the things she does... sometimes i feel that me and my mother are such great pals that we dun have to say anything to communicate our intentions; just one look and we could read each other's mind...

my mum went thru a lot when she was a child... she gave up her education opportunities cos my grandfather was in gambling debts... sometimes i do see that glimpse of regret in her eyes but isnt that the self-less love for her siblings that she did this? i really admire for wat she had done... maybe thats why she commands respect from all her siblings... all my uncles and anuties would call her 三姐 (she is the #3daughter of 11 siblings) even my 1st and 2nd aunt calls her 三姐 instead of 三妹...

eh... i'm not trying to show off how great my mum is cos i believe that all mothers are equally great...

i just wish to bring a point to the pple who are reading this blog:
have you taken a closer look at how your mum has aged? there was once i took a closer look at her and i really saw how time had left scars on her face... for that moment, it daunt on me that how much my mum had sacrificed herself for us...

there was also an occassion when i was helping my mum setting up the dinner table for reunion dinner, i heard this from the tv"...能看到孩子們吃著自己煮的飯, 再辛苦都值得..." the next thing i know, tears just rolled down from my eyes...

yes i know sam is going to say that i'm getting emotional agian... but when was the last time that you say a word of appreciation to your mum or your loved ones? consider this:

I've learned that i should always leave my loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time i'm seeing them.


<<每天多一些>> 張學友 吻別 track#6

也曾追求 也曾失落
不再有梦 是你为我
推开天窗 打开心锁
让希望 又转动

忙碌奔波 偶而迷惑
为了什么 是你给我
一份感动 一个理由
不疲倦 不脆弱

这世界的永恒不多
让我们也成为一种
情深如海 不移如山
用一生爱不完

我的爱一天比一天更热烈
要给你多些再多些不停歇
让你的生命只有甜和美 OH OH
遗忘该怎么流浪

我的爱一天比一天更热烈(还要坚决)
要给你多些再多些不停歇(然后再多一些)
让恋人钟爱的每一句誓言 OH OH
不再难追 全都实现

心中有爱 人生如歌
唱着欢乐 海阔天空
来去从容 不惹烦忧
有了你 别无求

I've learned that i don't have to change friends if i understand that friends change

i am very confused right now...

do people generally have a hard time speaking up? i know i cant expect people to speak up as readily as me but when you know that a good friend is suffering great grievances, would you still keep mum about it?

people who know me would know that i wouldnt just keep quiet and see my friends suffer in silence yet a good friend just did that on me...
and people who know me would also know that i wouldnt be so calm to be writting about wat happened... but i did!

i dun blame my friend for his wat he choose to do or rather, wat he choose not to do. i dun think my friend had changed at all... thats his character in the first place... thats the friend that i knew and anything less would make him different person i used to know... but of course pple do change and thats why if i understand that friends change, i dun have to change friends...

food for thought...

to my friend: just follow wat your heart tells you to do...


<<迷路>> 王菲 Di Dar track #2

黄像雨后黄昏 蓝像世上男人
携同着前尘一起远行

红灯 绿灯 红灯

前面是你脸庞 绝色 绝色
回头但觉剧情 褪色 褪色

沉沦在茫茫思想旅程
為何是非黑白絕不分明

回忆的国度 竟迷路
何处是 回归吧

用往日你背影
贴着我眼睛 继续怀念你
动作 话语 时间 情境

是四月那雪景 八月那雨声
想你直到直到直到无法回忆
念你念到迷路也好 不肯安静

情是往日情感 时是昨日时针
携同着前尘一起远行

困在记忆的森林

HEADLINES!!!

NTU exam answers leaked on the Net

would nus ever have exams answers circulating over the net? i wonder... cant imagine how miss chua would react when answers to his examination were found to be exposed...

but den again, wat would you have done if you have got hold of a so-called exam answers from the net or a reliable source? would you

1) inform all your friends
2) inform some friends
3) inform the department
4) keep quiet about it

this is not some kind of personality test hor... but if you ask me, i would choose option #1 and have a good laugh cos it just goes to show how incompetent a department can get... already our department is.... hahah better not make any comments here =P so wats yours?


<<让我想一想>> 陳琦貞 让我想一想 track #1

漫步在荒原 我想找一棵栖身的树
有阳光 有流水
还有微风吹

该如何面对 这未知的一切
让自己的思绪沈淀
随著天色的改变 心情的外衣也要多加一件

这些对 那些好 我想追 我想逃
其实我也害怕
可不可以就这样停下来
我要多一点时间好让我再想一想

隔著玻璃窗 我早已沈醉在蓝色的街
有寂寞 有笑语
还有看不见的雪

该如何整理 这忙乱的城市
还有我的心事
躲在十二月热闹的夜 我只要一个人 安安静静地

什么对 什么好 不要问 不要猜
不要太靠近我
可不可以勇敢地停下来
我要多一点空间好让我再想一想

i am what i eat?

meng,

You are affectionate, giving and loving. You are very understanding of others which makes you a person others want to be with.

You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.

also meng,

You love the good life. You live extravagantly and like everything around you to be beautifully crafted. You are optimistic, have an excellent sense of humor and enjoy having your friends around you.

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.

true or false?

here's something that i have learnt from a mental health module:

is it more accurate to
1) diagnose a person suffering from schizophrenia using the most accurate scale you can ever find or
2) a person admiting that he is suffering from schizophrenia?

just some food for thoughts...


<<逃亡>> 孫燕姿 風箏 track#4

踩著月光　打开车窗
离开这城市想找个解放

一路开往　最高那一座山
孤单的想像　寂寞的逃亡

我想是偶尔难免沮丧
想离开　想躲起来

心里的期待　总是填不满

我看著山下千万的窗　谁不曾感到失望
就算会彷徨　也还要去闯

关于未来　只有自己明白
不想让心情　被现实打败

一路开往　最高那一座山
孤单的想像　寂寞的逃亡

我站在靠近天的顶端
张开手全部释放

用月光取暖　给自己力量

才发现关于梦的答案
一直在自己手上

只有自己能　让自己发光

what goes round comes round

hmmm... kinda sad today... finally know how it feels whenever i fail to call home and notify my mum that i'm will not be going home for dinner... well yea... my brother didnt call home that he wont be back for dinner... and now the fridge is stacked with left-overs... =( think i have often run into the pitfall of taking my family for granted... thinking that things will be there for me all the time... i guess i have learnt a lot during this period where my parents are away for holiday in china...

first of all, family dynamics changed a lot... following my mum's departure... seriously wat can 3 men talk about? already me and my brother arent close to my dad... i really cant imagine wat would happen should one day my mum leaves us... like wat my mum always tell my dad... 'if you ever leave us first, you'll have a good life. but if ever i should leave first, you will have a hard life..' i think my mum is right...

next, my dad left and joined my mum... leaving behind my brother and me... gosh... that slacker does nothing at all... least my dad would help me with the house chores; my brother didnt even lift a finger... to the extent he merely took his clothes from the 'teck ko' leaving mine behind... terrible... but wat to do? he's my only brother...

then, he also left for thailand for songkran (潑水節), leaving me all alone... initially i tot it would be great to stay alone... moreover i get to use his car and drive to whereever i wanted to go... but shortly after the second day after he left, i felt so lonely, eating packed meals... hiaz... really cant imagine having to stay alone...

well the good thing is my parents will be back tomorrow!!! yippie!!! hmmm... i wonder wat surprise will they will be getting for me this time... i remember they got one carton of seaweed from korea last nov... it was really a surprise indeed (有驚無喜)... =/

many times on my journey back home, be it booking out from bmt or on the plane back to singapore, i will always tell myself there is no place like home...


<<回家真好>> 劉德華 回家真好 track #1

电话不停在吵 老板不停地闹
总逃不开 工作表 做完了 又来了
怎样也不甩掉

回家感觉真好 别管世俗纷扰
把一整天的面罩 忙和累的大脑 都往热水里泡
让每一颗细胞 忘掉烦恼

我的家就是我的城堡 每一砖一瓦 用爱创造
家里人的微笑 是我的财宝
等回家才知道 自己真的重要

双手能为家人而粗糙 啊多么荣耀 那么骄傲
你为我把饭烧 我为你打扫
啊回家的感觉 实在真的太好

my first entry

ehhhh..... i also dunno wat made me decide to create this blog... well just tot that it would be fun to share all the interesting thoughts and events that are happening around me with everyone who happens to be reading... hmm... this is not really my first blog lar... so happen that the first blog is shared and not pubilshed thats all... since it does not belong to me alone... i was telling june that the first entry was 26 jan 2003... heh... pls dont ask for the detials... =P

i just completed a sushi fortune telling test from june's blog and here are the results:

LOVE - Yellow Tail : long for extraordinary love.
MONEY - Salmon : you buy anything you like.
CAREER - Kappa : cautious, when there is a chance, you will think twice before taking any action. but then you lose a lot of opportunities.
FAMILY - Yellow Tail : your mood swings easily, your demands keep changing, you feel annoyed about your family.
WISH - Salmon : wish to break through yourself.

well they are true to a great extent and can be described as my current status right now... and yes i'm so annoyed about my brother... he keeps 4 tanks of fishes but he never bothered to feed them or change the water... there is one poor discus whose eye is already infected and all he does is to stick his eyes to the tv! i really wonder why he keeps the fishes in the first place? poor fish... i feel so painful for you...

this is really something to ponder for potential pet owners... think of how your pet might feel the way you treat them... would you like to be treated the same way as well?


<<記得>> 張惠妹 真實 track #6

谁还记得　是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们 以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后

我们都忘了　这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的　有一天　有一天都会停的
让时间说真话　虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后　我们都不知道 会不会有遗憾

谁还记得　是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们 以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后

我们都累了　却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑　怎么说　怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么　也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人　等对方先说 找分开的理由

谁还记得 爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中　看见了 不同的天空
走的太远　终于走到 分岔路的路口
是不是你和我　要有两 个相反的梦

谁还记得　是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们 以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后