I've learned that i don't have to change friends if i understand that friends change

i am very confused right now...

do people generally have a hard time speaking up? i know i cant expect people to speak up as readily as me but when you know that a good friend is suffering great grievances, would you still keep mum about it?

people who know me would know that i wouldnt just keep quiet and see my friends suffer in silence yet a good friend just did that on me...
and people who know me would also know that i wouldnt be so calm to be writting about wat happened... but i did!

i dun blame my friend for his wat he choose to do or rather, wat he choose not to do. i dun think my friend had changed at all... thats his character in the first place... thats the friend that i knew and anything less would make him different person i used to know... but of course pple do change and thats why if i understand that friends change, i dun have to change friends...

food for thought...

to my friend: just follow wat your heart tells you to do...


<<迷路>> 王菲 Di Dar track #2

黄像雨后黄昏 蓝像世上男人
携同着前尘一起远行

红灯 绿灯 红灯

前面是你脸庞 绝色 绝色
回头但觉剧情 褪色 褪色

沉沦在茫茫思想旅程
為何是非黑白絕不分明

回忆的国度 竟迷路
何处是 回归吧

用往日你背影
贴着我眼睛 继续怀念你
动作 话语 时间 情境

是四月那雪景 八月那雨声
想你直到直到直到无法回忆
念你念到迷路也好 不肯安静

情是往日情感 时是昨日时针
携同着前尘一起远行

困在记忆的森林

HEADLINES!!!

NTU exam answers leaked on the Net

would nus ever have exams answers circulating over the net? i wonder... cant imagine how miss chua would react when answers to his examination were found to be exposed...

but den again, wat would you have done if you have got hold of a so-called exam answers from the net or a reliable source? would you

1) inform all your friends
2) inform some friends
3) inform the department
4) keep quiet about it

this is not some kind of personality test hor... but if you ask me, i would choose option #1 and have a good laugh cos it just goes to show how incompetent a department can get... already our department is.... hahah better not make any comments here =P so wats yours?


<<让我想一想>> 陳琦貞 让我想一想 track #1

漫步在荒原 我想找一棵栖身的树
有阳光 有流水
还有微风吹

该如何面对 这未知的一切
让自己的思绪沈淀
随著天色的改变 心情的外衣也要多加一件

这些对 那些好 我想追 我想逃
其实我也害怕
可不可以就这样停下来
我要多一点时间好让我再想一想

隔著玻璃窗 我早已沈醉在蓝色的街
有寂寞 有笑语
还有看不见的雪

该如何整理 这忙乱的城市
还有我的心事
躲在十二月热闹的夜 我只要一个人 安安静静地

什么对 什么好 不要问 不要猜
不要太靠近我
可不可以勇敢地停下来
我要多一点空间好让我再想一想

i am what i eat?

meng,

You are affectionate, giving and loving. You are very understanding of others which makes you a person others want to be with.

You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.

also meng,

You love the good life. You live extravagantly and like everything around you to be beautifully crafted. You are optimistic, have an excellent sense of humor and enjoy having your friends around you.

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.

true or false?

here's something that i have learnt from a mental health module:

is it more accurate to
1) diagnose a person suffering from schizophrenia using the most accurate scale you can ever find or
2) a person admiting that he is suffering from schizophrenia?

just some food for thoughts...


<<逃亡>> 孫燕姿 風箏 track#4

踩著月光　打开车窗
离开这城市想找个解放

一路开往　最高那一座山
孤单的想像　寂寞的逃亡

我想是偶尔难免沮丧
想离开　想躲起来

心里的期待　总是填不满

我看著山下千万的窗　谁不曾感到失望
就算会彷徨　也还要去闯

关于未来　只有自己明白
不想让心情　被现实打败

一路开往　最高那一座山
孤单的想像　寂寞的逃亡

我站在靠近天的顶端
张开手全部释放

用月光取暖　给自己力量

才发现关于梦的答案
一直在自己手上

只有自己能　让自己发光

what goes round comes round

hmmm... kinda sad today... finally know how it feels whenever i fail to call home and notify my mum that i'm will not be going home for dinner... well yea... my brother didnt call home that he wont be back for dinner... and now the fridge is stacked with left-overs... =( think i have often run into the pitfall of taking my family for granted... thinking that things will be there for me all the time... i guess i have learnt a lot during this period where my parents are away for holiday in china...

first of all, family dynamics changed a lot... following my mum's departure... seriously wat can 3 men talk about? already me and my brother arent close to my dad... i really cant imagine wat would happen should one day my mum leaves us... like wat my mum always tell my dad... 'if you ever leave us first, you'll have a good life. but if ever i should leave first, you will have a hard life..' i think my mum is right...

next, my dad left and joined my mum... leaving behind my brother and me... gosh... that slacker does nothing at all... least my dad would help me with the house chores; my brother didnt even lift a finger... to the extent he merely took his clothes from the 'teck ko' leaving mine behind... terrible... but wat to do? he's my only brother...

then, he also left for thailand for songkran (潑水節), leaving me all alone... initially i tot it would be great to stay alone... moreover i get to use his car and drive to whereever i wanted to go... but shortly after the second day after he left, i felt so lonely, eating packed meals... hiaz... really cant imagine having to stay alone...

well the good thing is my parents will be back tomorrow!!! yippie!!! hmmm... i wonder wat surprise will they will be getting for me this time... i remember they got one carton of seaweed from korea last nov... it was really a surprise indeed (有驚無喜)... =/

many times on my journey back home, be it booking out from bmt or on the plane back to singapore, i will always tell myself there is no place like home...


<<回家真好>> 劉德華 回家真好 track #1

电话不停在吵 老板不停地闹
总逃不开 工作表 做完了 又来了
怎样也不甩掉

回家感觉真好 别管世俗纷扰
把一整天的面罩 忙和累的大脑 都往热水里泡
让每一颗细胞 忘掉烦恼

我的家就是我的城堡 每一砖一瓦 用爱创造
家里人的微笑 是我的财宝
等回家才知道 自己真的重要

双手能为家人而粗糙 啊多么荣耀 那么骄傲
你为我把饭烧 我为你打扫
啊回家的感觉 实在真的太好

my first entry

ehhhh..... i also dunno wat made me decide to create this blog... well just tot that it would be fun to share all the interesting thoughts and events that are happening around me with everyone who happens to be reading... hmm... this is not really my first blog lar... so happen that the first blog is shared and not pubilshed thats all... since it does not belong to me alone... i was telling june that the first entry was 26 jan 2003... heh... pls dont ask for the detials... =P

i just completed a sushi fortune telling test from june's blog and here are the results:

LOVE - Yellow Tail : long for extraordinary love.
MONEY - Salmon : you buy anything you like.
CAREER - Kappa : cautious, when there is a chance, you will think twice before taking any action. but then you lose a lot of opportunities.
FAMILY - Yellow Tail : your mood swings easily, your demands keep changing, you feel annoyed about your family.
WISH - Salmon : wish to break through yourself.

well they are true to a great extent and can be described as my current status right now... and yes i'm so annoyed about my brother... he keeps 4 tanks of fishes but he never bothered to feed them or change the water... there is one poor discus whose eye is already infected and all he does is to stick his eyes to the tv! i really wonder why he keeps the fishes in the first place? poor fish... i feel so painful for you...

this is really something to ponder for potential pet owners... think of how your pet might feel the way you treat them... would you like to be treated the same way as well?


<<記得>> 張惠妹 真實 track #6

谁还记得　是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们 以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后

我们都忘了　这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的　有一天　有一天都会停的
让时间说真话　虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后　我们都不知道 会不会有遗憾

谁还记得　是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们 以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后

我们都累了　却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑　怎么说　怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么　也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人　等对方先说 找分开的理由

谁还记得 爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中　看见了 不同的天空
走的太远　终于走到 分岔路的路口
是不是你和我　要有两 个相反的梦

谁还记得　是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们 以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得 当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后
我和你手牵手　说要一起 走到最后