to the people who have crossed my path, thank you for the valuable lessons. 2007 was meaningful because of you.
to those who haven't, whoever you are, wherever you maybe, see you in 2008.
salut.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
life's precious lessons
my kids had made me worked hard for the past few days. it all started on saturday after i've cleaned the house:
one of the girls peed at the usual spot which was never allowed in the first place. and because that spot is not leveled, the pee flowed in between the tiles down stream until the whole dinning area was wet. this happened twice.
then, my demon puked on the sofa. fur ball. i had to quickly remove the covers and dump them into the washing machine. while taking off the sofa covers, he jumped onto the bed and puked again. damm it! the bedsheets, blankets and matress protector were all stained and i had to send them for washing after the sofa covers are done.
Sunday
woke up to find the left corner entrance to the dogs' toilet covered with a puddle of pee. its either daddy or bryce who did it. went to check the dinning area. surprisingly dry. good! so i went back to clear the toilet and prepared breakfast for the babies. took them for their morning walk and headed to hillview and fed the cats with daddy and mummy. followed by sending them to the groomer.
finally i had some time for myself. so i instinctively drove to bagus at imm and had my favourite yong tau hu laksa with bandung. afterwhich i religiously went to giant and did some grocery shopping. headed home after that.
the moment i opened the door, i smelt pee. the exact spot at the dinning area was wet again. definitely meimei this time! damm it! i had to clean up the whole dining area again. just as i thought i could catch some rest after the cleaning, the phone rang: "your babies are ready to be picked up" argh! im so tired! but no choice, i headed back to fetch daddy and mummy.
after all that jazz, i finally got the chance to snooze. dozed off for about 30mins and watched 881 and sepet for the 3rd time.
soon it was time for dinner. prepared the usual meal for the babies. and only after they were done, came my turn. just as i was enjoying my dinner, my demon puked on the sofa again! what the hell! i just washed the cover yesterday! and he has to puke there again? not only that, he also jumped onto the bed and puked again! ARGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!! i don’t believe it! i had to remove the sofa covers and bedsheets to wash them again. there goes my dinner. absolutely no mood to eat anymore. took daddy and mummy out for some air and drove them to feed the cats. headed home to clear the laundry and slept, still feeling frustrated.
Monday
the same area outside the dogs' toilet is covered with pee. this time round its dried so i reckoned its bryce. (he didn’t get his walk as last night was raining quite heavily.) had to clear up the mess. no pee pee at the dining area so that saved me some time. quickly prepared breakfast for the babies and ate some left over buns myself. showered, cleaned the babies' face and took daddy and mummy for their morning walk. headed to feed the cats before going for work.
during lunch time, i bought some food to cook for dinner and breakfast for the next morning. i've also bought minced pork to give the babies a treat. at 6pm i quickly drove home to look at my babies. the moment i went home, pee at the dining area plus another pee spot at the leg of the dining table which was already waiting for me to clean. that corner has to be bryce! frustrated, i waxed that whole dinning area to prevent the pee from flowing all over. all these while that i was cleaning, i never hugged any one of the babies. neither did they dared come near me. even though i know mummy wanted to play fetch, daddy wanted a hug and my demon wanted very much to sit on my lap and a kiss from me.
after all that was done, i still made them the meat loaf and fed them. they looked please to be served with good food. and only after they are done, i prepared my own dinner and did some laundry. didn’t have time to sit still and enjoy my only entertainment on monday nights. after that i had to feed the cats at hillview with daddy and mummy again. went home to clear the laundry and slept.
sometime into my sleep, daddy barked so that i can carry him onto the bed. he probably went down to pee. too tired to even look at the clock, i just carried him up and went back to sleep. moments later, bryce barked to be carried... meimei stroked my hand to be carried. daddy barked again. this time i opened my eyes. 4am! carried him and went back to sleep.
Tuesday
this morning's mess has to be the worst! the toilet entrance is not only flooded with pee, it has paw prints (dapped with pee) all over. its really frustrating to see this first thing in the morning. and instead of drying the area the usual way of kitchen towel, i splashed water and scrubbed the entire area. the dogs were too scared to even move an inch. it took me 30 minutes to make sure its clean. afterwhich i fed the babies and made myself a sandwich. showered, clean the babies' face, took daddy and mummy for their walk. headed to hillview and feed the cats before coming for work.
i dont know what i'll get after work today and i'm not venting my frustrations here. upon reflection, i've taken one of life's most precious thing - kindness for granted.
i think it is very easy to react negatively to the above situations and by doing so, it also means that i'm self-centered and neglected what my babies need. i hate to admit it but that's exactly the way i've been brought up. it is a heinous crime if i ever make a mistake and the consequences were hash. kneeling on bottle caps, umpteen cane marks which split my flesh that kept me bleeding.
as a 29 year old, i’m still trying very hard to balance this untold part of me which never fail to transform me into a raging beast sometimes. afterall, where else can the babies run to, except a dead end and continue to grow up in fear like i did?
one of the girls peed at the usual spot which was never allowed in the first place. and because that spot is not leveled, the pee flowed in between the tiles down stream until the whole dinning area was wet. this happened twice.
then, my demon puked on the sofa. fur ball. i had to quickly remove the covers and dump them into the washing machine. while taking off the sofa covers, he jumped onto the bed and puked again. damm it! the bedsheets, blankets and matress protector were all stained and i had to send them for washing after the sofa covers are done.
Sunday
woke up to find the left corner entrance to the dogs' toilet covered with a puddle of pee. its either daddy or bryce who did it. went to check the dinning area. surprisingly dry. good! so i went back to clear the toilet and prepared breakfast for the babies. took them for their morning walk and headed to hillview and fed the cats with daddy and mummy. followed by sending them to the groomer.
finally i had some time for myself. so i instinctively drove to bagus at imm and had my favourite yong tau hu laksa with bandung. afterwhich i religiously went to giant and did some grocery shopping. headed home after that.
the moment i opened the door, i smelt pee. the exact spot at the dinning area was wet again. definitely meimei this time! damm it! i had to clean up the whole dining area again. just as i thought i could catch some rest after the cleaning, the phone rang: "your babies are ready to be picked up" argh! im so tired! but no choice, i headed back to fetch daddy and mummy.
after all that jazz, i finally got the chance to snooze. dozed off for about 30mins and watched 881 and sepet for the 3rd time.
soon it was time for dinner. prepared the usual meal for the babies. and only after they were done, came my turn. just as i was enjoying my dinner, my demon puked on the sofa again! what the hell! i just washed the cover yesterday! and he has to puke there again? not only that, he also jumped onto the bed and puked again! ARGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!! i don’t believe it! i had to remove the sofa covers and bedsheets to wash them again. there goes my dinner. absolutely no mood to eat anymore. took daddy and mummy out for some air and drove them to feed the cats. headed home to clear the laundry and slept, still feeling frustrated.
Monday
the same area outside the dogs' toilet is covered with pee. this time round its dried so i reckoned its bryce. (he didn’t get his walk as last night was raining quite heavily.) had to clear up the mess. no pee pee at the dining area so that saved me some time. quickly prepared breakfast for the babies and ate some left over buns myself. showered, cleaned the babies' face and took daddy and mummy for their morning walk. headed to feed the cats before going for work.
during lunch time, i bought some food to cook for dinner and breakfast for the next morning. i've also bought minced pork to give the babies a treat. at 6pm i quickly drove home to look at my babies. the moment i went home, pee at the dining area plus another pee spot at the leg of the dining table which was already waiting for me to clean. that corner has to be bryce! frustrated, i waxed that whole dinning area to prevent the pee from flowing all over. all these while that i was cleaning, i never hugged any one of the babies. neither did they dared come near me. even though i know mummy wanted to play fetch, daddy wanted a hug and my demon wanted very much to sit on my lap and a kiss from me.
after all that was done, i still made them the meat loaf and fed them. they looked please to be served with good food. and only after they are done, i prepared my own dinner and did some laundry. didn’t have time to sit still and enjoy my only entertainment on monday nights. after that i had to feed the cats at hillview with daddy and mummy again. went home to clear the laundry and slept.
sometime into my sleep, daddy barked so that i can carry him onto the bed. he probably went down to pee. too tired to even look at the clock, i just carried him up and went back to sleep. moments later, bryce barked to be carried... meimei stroked my hand to be carried. daddy barked again. this time i opened my eyes. 4am! carried him and went back to sleep.
Tuesday
this morning's mess has to be the worst! the toilet entrance is not only flooded with pee, it has paw prints (dapped with pee) all over. its really frustrating to see this first thing in the morning. and instead of drying the area the usual way of kitchen towel, i splashed water and scrubbed the entire area. the dogs were too scared to even move an inch. it took me 30 minutes to make sure its clean. afterwhich i fed the babies and made myself a sandwich. showered, clean the babies' face, took daddy and mummy for their walk. headed to hillview and feed the cats before coming for work.
i dont know what i'll get after work today and i'm not venting my frustrations here. upon reflection, i've taken one of life's most precious thing - kindness for granted.
i think it is very easy to react negatively to the above situations and by doing so, it also means that i'm self-centered and neglected what my babies need. i hate to admit it but that's exactly the way i've been brought up. it is a heinous crime if i ever make a mistake and the consequences were hash. kneeling on bottle caps, umpteen cane marks which split my flesh that kept me bleeding.
as a 29 year old, i’m still trying very hard to balance this untold part of me which never fail to transform me into a raging beast sometimes. afterall, where else can the babies run to, except a dead end and continue to grow up in fear like i did?
Thursday, December 13, 2007
allow yourself to be misunderstood?
eureka! finally understood why a friend of mine is an avid fan of not explaining things.
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